Friday, November 12, 2010

“You’re saying its Controlling Behavior to Separate Her from Her Friend’s….

I think that guys should never be controlling over a girl, guys should let their girlfriend hang out with who ever they want. I think its bad when a guy is controlling, because they end up hitting you, in the book how Nick says that catline cant hang out with Elsa is not okay that is controlling. I remember when I was controlling with my boyfriend it was not good we always fought. When I was with my boyfriend I would tell him I don’t want you talking to girls but you know what I told him “you know what you can talk to who you ever you want you just need to set your limits.” I learned not to be controlling because being like that doesn’t take you no where.

I think Catline shouldn’t be with Nick because he is controlling , I think she’s going to end up getting hurt by him because mostly all guys that are controlling end up hitting their girl. This Quote remembers me also when my mom was with my little sister’s dad he was so controlling. He always hit my mom I was 10 years old when he hit her I still remember, No one should be controlling.
I slapped her not hit her.
Breathing underwater Pg. 23

When people say that I know they are lying and they will never tell the truth until they lose the one they love the most is gone. When its too late they want it back and its too late and too hard to get it back because when you do some thing like that it very hard too get their trust back, it takes a while to do it. That’s why people need too think before they do some thing they will regret or if they don’t they will lose the one they love, and when people say “Oh that’s the way I was raised” that’s a lie well maybe they were raised like that but if they didn’t like it then they shouldn’t treat other people like that. They have control of there own action.

When they do you need to let them go because once you get closer to them and have fun with them it get’s harder to say good bye. When you leave them they learn how to respect women and they will cherish they more then ever. For example when abusive men are coming to hang out with you and their friends call them to go smoke dope they ditch you or they tell you not to hang out with certain people.

Friday, October 29, 2010

Granted

Have you ever taken anything for granted? What makes you take it for granted? What makes you remember or appreciate what you took for granted?
Once I’ve taken granted of a special friendship that was important to my life. At the time I didn’t have a care in the world. But when I realized that this special friendship made me feel a feeling like never before and that I did care, I knew that I shouldn’t have taken it for granted. She was all I could think about and didn’t know what to do. It made me feel like I had just lost the world. Then I thought to myself “if I want this girl to be in my life then I need to do something about it”. I called and told her I needed to talk. I expressed every thought, every feeling, every expression and my heart to her. I did everything in my power to get her back. So I changed my attitude, ways and the way I expressed myself to her. I was able to get what I wanted most back in my life and don’t have the need to think twice about taking anything for granted. When you’ve taken something for granted you may not realize it and makes you feel bad. At the end of the day you realize what you’ve done wrong and messed up and that you lost what you wanted or what you were looking for in life. When you finally realize what you done you can always appreciate what you lost and maybe try to get it back if it’s possible, but some people choose to let it go so their left to wonder what could have happen. And now I know not to ever take her for granted again if I want to keep her in my life. I appreciate everything about her and remember every good memory spent together. That’s what I’ve taken for granted.

Final Words

If I was dying in my bed and my parents were there by my side I would tell them that “I love them”, and I would tell them to “take care of my son and keep him safe”. Another thing I would tell them before I die is to make sure they discipline my son right and put him in a sport so he can focus on his mind about sports not other things like gangs, drugs, sex. My parents are so important to me I would tell them I was sorry for everything I’ve done to them, and to forgive me for being bad for them in the past, and not listen to them when they told me to stay out of trouble, because my parents use to tell me Claudia your going to get locked up if you keep hanging out with your friends, so I did I got locked up, I felt sad because my baby was out there with out me. I always look back of what I did and I regret I should of always listen to my parents but I didn’t that’s why I ended up in foster care. I would tell my mom and that that I will miss them...

I think the only thing that is worse then dying is loosing my son. I think dying is worse because my son will be with out me when he needs me. Another thing that is really worse than dying is if anything really bad ever happened to my son. I think dying is worse than all these things because my son will be with out me and what if he tries to do suicide because theirs some children that do that I want my son to be safe. I’m my sons everything he follows me more than his dad, and I don’t know what they would do with out me.

In Dying Days

Do I believe that something can be worse than dying?
I think that depends on the person. For me something worse would
probably be stuff like losing a loved one, or being so ignored, disrespected and not
noticed that I just wouldn’t feel like even trying. That would suck. Or being
paralyzed permanently would suck hardcore. I don’t know how those people take all
that crap and get through it somehow. I would also hate to be one of those people who make fun of people who have serious problems. That would be like the worst
Feeling anyone could live with. Or those people that live through some serious
Traumas and are half alive with machines keeping them alive and they don’t even
Say or do anything. Also there are people with mental problems like schizophrenia,
And a bunch of other stuff. That would be enough for me to welcome death.
I feel bad for those people who go through that, but I feel even better when I hear about people who go through that and succeed. That’s pretty crazy how people can fight that
Without killing themselves. So it totally depends on the person. If you can take a lot of crap, or the opposite. Being so sick with a disease or sickness and living through that
might help you remember that suicide isn’t that that far away. I would hate to be put through that and live. So I believe that there is stuff worse than death out there. Or people
wouldn’t be committing suicide so much now days. Having everything taken from you wouldn’t be a good thing too, like your spouse, your house, family, anything. Also being addicted to something is worse than dying, I think. Committing your whole life to getting enough money for your next high on anything without you wanting to would set me over too. Some people know what I am talking about and it sucks. Well those are the reasons I believe that there are things out there that are worse than death.

Final Words

My final words would have to be are paths will cross again. I know that sounds cheesy but I wouldn’t want my family to get all upset or do something stupid just because I died. At least when I told them that they would hopefully feel better. Then I would be able to move on.
If I was to say something to my mom I would
Hope I said something I would want her to hear before I died. Hopefully I won’t die before her

If I was to say something to my little brother it would be don’t turn out like me please. Because I have done some pretty bad stuff

To my dad I would say thanks for your time with me
Thanks for putting up with me all these years. Hopefully I won’t die before him as well.

To my older brothers I would say six different final words to each one cause there is exactly six brothers older than me in the family!
To all of my friends I would say thank you for being my friend all threes years even when I would not be a good friend sometimes.
Hopefully I will say my finals words to people every time I see them because no ones knows exactly when their going to die. Except animals but I am not talking about them.
People take a lot of things for granted, life is one thing that we should not. We act as if we have the rest of our lives but life can be taken as just as it is be given. We can be gone today within a blink of an eye. Tomorrow is not promised to any one of us so we have to live for today, and that is a must. I don’t know maybe we get greedy and think that our problems are the biggest and that we are the ones that need to get help first that we are the most important people well that is not what I think.

I think we need to take time out of our day look to the person to the side of us and get off our asses and try to help them and do what we can to help them and at the end of the day look back and thick what we did and that we as a individual have helped a nother person and in the end sleep in peace knowing that you get what you give and that it will come back to you in the end whether it is at judgment time or the very next day.

I love you

Would I want to my family I love you before they passed away. Yes I would because I had an aunt that passed away and she was my favorite aunt in the whole wide world. When she passed away I didn’t even get to say good bye or anything because she passed away before I could see her again and it broke my heart into a million peaces. She was always traveling and to this day it still kills me, but I know she’s in a better place now and not in pain any more. One thing I wish though is that she could of seen my son before she went, she didn’t even get to see him once she was supposed to come see a day after she died and I feel so bad for that but she can see him now and that’s all that matters.

But what she would have said I am always there. When ever I think of her I can see her in my memories of her. The thing I miss most about her is her laugh and her personality, you know in my house I had to take down all of her pictures because it hurt so bad but there all going back up slowly. She didn’t die that long ago only two months ago. I wanted too jump in the casket with her I didn’t want her to go I wanted her to stay.

When I found out my aunt died I fell on my knees and stated crying I couldn’t believe it I just wish she was still her I miss her so much. When she laughed every one laughed, when she smiled every one smiled.

I love you aunty and R.I.P I’ll see you soon you are always in my heart and in every one else’s.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Marriage

I think that they had arranged marriages back then so that the parents can have their child in a family they feel okay about. Also so that they know their child is in a safe family. The benefits from this would be that the family’s that have known each other for awhile could all be one big family instead of just friends.

The disadvantage would be that the couple getting married has a big chance of not liking each other. Or they just want to be friends. The big problem would be what if he/she is in love with someone else. This leaves a question. Did the parents really care about their children’s own feelings? My opinion about this idea is that it never should have been thought of. Because a lot a kids had parents that didn’t like each other and probably fought a lot. I’m just glad that doesn’t happen here in Utah. If any religion or country says that you have to do that then that just Wrong not just in one way but in many ways. Because these days people can get a divorce. Which then leaves kids in a bad spot.

Living in 1793

If I was living in the year 1793, I would not be happy. That would suck really bad. But it would be kind of cool to live back then. I don’t know exactly what I would do. Probably live the normal life of a 1793 person. I think I would go crazy without technology though. That would be one of the many hard parts of living back then. I would prefer the mid-evil times. That would be awesome. But I don’t know what I would do for jobs though. Maybe build houses, because that’s what I do is build houses with my dad. That would be a good job for me. I would like to have a wife and kids. Just live life like normal and have fun. But there wouldn’t be much to do like now days. No heavy metal. No video games, no legend of Zelda. Not as many sports as now days. No television, no head banging, no mosh pits. No nothing! Those are some of the reasons I would hate it back then. I would not like not having those things.

But a couple of reasons on why I would like it would be that there would not be as much evil a there is now days. The air would be more pure, people might be nicer, stuff like that. But those might not be true. But that is how I view it would be. I wouldn’t mind the music from back then. But still, it would suck. But this paragraph is about the stuff I would like. I might also like the food. You would be more healthy back then. I wouldn’t mind being a farmer either. That would be cool with me. As long as I got paid a good amount for how hard I worked. Those are most of the reasons I would like/hate living in 1973. I still would prefer the mid-evil ages over the 1700’s. but that’s my point of view.

Funeral

I think attending a funeral is really important. Well it really depends on who it was, how about if it was someone that you don’t like right? I’ve attended a hole bunch already, I hate going to them. Because I hate seen mothers cry so when I do it hurts me like no other. Especially when it is the mother’s of some of my closes home boys. I love all my homies, but when I see them dead in front in their funeral I fill like they are just going to wake up. And say what it do dawg. So if that will happen I will proplably put him to sleep myself lol. And its important specially if you really considered him or her your homies. If don’t go to the homies funeral chales that’s some really mest up stuff. I have attended all of my dead homies funerals even if I have to leave Utah for a couple of days.
But then again that’s me and theirs no one like me. So if your reading this don’t be a punk and be a two face to them when their alive. Go to their funeral to ok dawgy’s don’t be mest up.

Being a Snob

A person who is stuck up and thinks that they are better than others, makes fun of people because how they dress. I think in the book Fever Jeannie is a snobbish because she makes fun of Jeannie’s family coffee shop saying that there shop is grog shop, and a grog shop means that they let people drink and fight. The coffee shop doesn’t serve alcohol.

Jeannie is a mean girl who thinks’ she better than Matilda’s family, like in the book she doe’s means things to Matilda when mom doesn’t see ex: she sticks her toung out at her. I’ve been told before that I was a snob because I use to think I was better then everyone else, and I have in the past, I always thought I was better then my cosines which we were all the same but I always thought I was good, and I was stuck up but not anymore I’m my self it is always good being your self not someone who you aren’t really.

I remember when some girls in my school use to always think they were better then me, I don’t know why girls always think that there better then another actually all girls are the same no one is perfect than anyone there’s no one in the world who is perfect. There are a lot of girls who are snobs and those are some girls who are rich, and girls who think there better then everyone.

Thursday, September 23, 2010

I would have some one rather tell me the truth then be nice,
Because truth means a lot more then some one being nice to me.
Even if that person is an a hole to I wouldn’t really care because its one person
Being not nice, it really doesn’t bother me. But if that person cares enough to tell me the truth about things then at least I know they care a little about me in some way.

Honesty is very important tom me because it’s something that builds up trust, bravery, integrity, and stuff like that. And it shows care in people, shows that people are willing to take back that much. And that you can ask someone to do something and you know they are going to do it and be able to come you to you and tell you that they did it.

An example is when my brother was on drugs like heroin and I asked him, my aunt asked him, and my mom asked him if he was on something and he was and he said he wasn’t but, we could tell he was on it because he never acts stupid when he’s sober he doesn’t talk with his eyes closed drooping to the floor he sleeps right and doesn’t stay up all night for 3-4 days, and when he lied I go upset cause he acts like a dumb ace. And be because he wasn’t telling the truth, and that he has my niece to take care of.

Words

Why do words hurt so much? I think it is because words get under the skin. Some words can make you so mad some make you sad. You never know how someone will fill if you say something that they do not like. Like this friend that I have did not like when I said that his girl friend was poling him in to meth and that I did not like her. Me and him got in to an argument and said some things that we regretted we did no speak for a week. Words heart more then getting hit some times because they heart longer.

Trust

I trust my foster dad Eddie enough to talk and ask him things that I wouldn’t talk or ask my parents about. I’ve only been with him for two months and I already know I can trust him. He’s given me a lot of advice lately that makes me fell like he understands what I’m going through. It made me wonder how? Then he told me he was adopted and knows what I’m going through. That’s when I realized I can trust him. If you took one glance at his appearance you’d probably think he doesn’t know crap. When you get to know him though he really is understanding, caring, and kind.


He told me once that bad things happen to good only to make them better people. Then he said “Tyler that’s happening to you, so continue to make the right choices”. Then I made the decision to clean up my act and put my life back together.

Honesty

How important is honest to me? I think honesty is one of the most important things to me. Mostly because I can get over a lot of things, cheating, and stuff like that. But I hate being lied to! I won’t stand it; it’s an insult to my intelligence. That they think I wont figure out I’m being lied to. I believe that honesty is the most important in all relationships. Honesty leads to trust and if you are honest, they know they can trust you. I would rather be told an ugly truth, then a beautiful lie. Sure it would be nice to pretend everything’s perfect and everything. But in the end it just hurts you in the end. Because it is not the truth, and you can live a lie forever.

Hmm…someone that was painfully honest with me? Well my ex boyfriend JJ called me fat and told me I could lose a little weight. I think that was the most painfully honest thing a guy has ever told me. How did this turn out to be a good thing you may ask? It made me aware of my body and helped me work in to who I am today. Also now I’m a health nut, in pretty good shape and okay health. That was the most honest anyone has ever been to me. It hurt way bad having someone be that honest specially since it was a my boyfriend at the time. Yeah it hurt and all but in the end it made me want to be better, so four years later here I am today trying to be the best I can be. I probably wouldn’t be in the shape I am today if it weren’t for JJ being so painfully honest. But the truth hurts and there’s no lie about that.

Honesty

Honesty: The power to tell the truth and act on it.


Honesty can affect people in a very big way it would change every thing from how people act how they talk how they think and how they dress. If every one was honest it would be a whole new world it would help people to open up and share what they are thinking. People would be able to express what there thoughts are about life and what they fell about what one person might say or do.
I think if everybody was honest it would hurt a lot of people but it would also make people fell better about them self. But this subject like all others haves an other side and I thick it is important that it is also hard and the opposite of the truth is a lie so if the truth hurts then does a lie feel good and if they both hurt. Can you say that every time we say something it hurts someone somewhere? If you do not like to be hurt but you are constantly hurting someone aren’t you just hurting you’re self. So I thick that all though lying is wrong there are times that it is best to lie. Witch would also mean that telling the truth is best even though telling the truth may hurt someone in some circumstances it is still best to tell the truth. It takes a big person to tell the truth but it may some times be best to lie. And the simple truth is that the truth hurts. So when you find you’re self in a place where you don’t know what to do remember that even throw you don’t mean to even throw you don’t want to what you say can hurt someone somewhere.

Honesty
1. moral uprightness: the quality, condition, or characteristic of being fair, truthful, and morally upright
2. truthfulness: truthfulness, candor, or sincerity
Synonyms: uprightness, morality, trustworthiness, goodness, scrupulousness, decency, rectitude, righteousness, fairness, reliability, honor

Promises

The only time you should not keep a promise is when it involves someone getting hurt or if someone is in danger. For example if some told you their mom is abusing them and they tell you not say anything then make you promise not to. That’s when you should say something. Another example would be if someone said their going to kill them self’s then you should report it. basically if it’s something that you feel wrong about keeping quiet then say something to some one before it’s to late don’t even think about saying something afterwards.

Punch vs. Words

Do you guys/girls think words hurt more than a punch? Or do you guys/girls believe that a punch hurts more than words? Because I believe that words hurt way more than a punch. I mean seriously a punch might hurt you but just for a minute not like in the other side words will always and forever will be their. Is like my scars every time you’ll remember or see them it hurts because you remember what happen. I been hit so much by life and by people that it doesn’t even hurt no more. But when I comes to someone that I love who tells me something some really hard words it does hurt me. And it will always stay their till the day that you die.

Friday, September 3, 2010

Mom

My mom is kind, loving and caring. She adopted nine kids including me! All of us really didn’t have any where else to go at the time. So I’m glad she opened up her heart to us when everyone else turned their backs on us.


Our mom really tried to take care of us. Now she’s trying really hard to get us back into the family. And now we only have ninety days till they decide if we go home or not. This in my opinion means she deserves a lot of respect for how hard she tried.