What is the looming figure?

I loom in the darkness waiting
Waiting for what?
Boom the words go pop in my head it’s like a mystery
That hasn’t been solved I see people in the darkness looking unsure and lost. You can look and see they are scared they are trapped and not sure how to get out.
I look deeply in the darkness I understand they are there but gone still in the thinnest of days.
I’m different from them I can still see and understand. I am unconquerable to my fate and my soul.
I look deep in the darkness and see my self and not sure what to do. I am trapped like an addict and hate to see what waits there in front of me.
I walk out of the darkness feeling relieved I am the lucky one,
Because those chumps are dead as you see and can never be the captain of there fate and soul.