I think what makes a hero is courage because if you’re a hero and you are scared of everything then you can’t really be a hero because you have to be brave and stand up for what you believe in. Being a hero isn’t just helping the world and saving everyone’s life, it’s like charity, you help someone without expecting anything back from the person you help.
Which character in the book do you think is the real hero? I think that Charley is the real hero because he sent for the runner to tell Spaz that bean was dying so that he can see her one last time before she dies even though Charley doesn’t really like Spaz0 and didn’t want him to see her he did it for his daughter because he loves her so that would be my hero for the book.
Well the other characters are heroes kind of because they helped Spaz get to his sister but I think that charley is the real hero because of what he did and yes the other characters were helping Spaz but I don’t think it was the same because they wanted to help but Charley was afraid, he didn’t want Spaz to see Bean but he sent for a runner so that he could see her because it wouldn’t be fair if he couldn’t see her before she died.
Friday, February 4, 2011
Ben my Brother
What makes a person a hero to you? What makes a person a hero to me is that they can keep on digging their holes deeper and deeper but they can always find a way and get the strength to get out of that hole. A hero to me is a positive role model like my big brother Ben he used to look at bad stuff on the computer but he found the strength to get out from those things and do what he knows is right.
My brother is my hero because he has set the perfect example to me he respects women they way they are supposed to be treated he hasn’t got to serious with anyone because he knew his mission was coming up fast so he didn’t steady date just so he could stay on track and actually be righteous enough to go on a mission. Now he is on his mission and I miss him but I wish I would have followed in his foot steps because now I’m locked up and I don’t get to talk to him which sucks because I really like my brother.
My brother is a perfect example of a hero because he would always help my sister with her kids so she could go to work he was always joking around and laughing but all his jokes were appropriate and that influenced me strongly because it made me realize that you can tell funny jokes without them having swear words in it or have any inappropriate things in it he was always making everyone laugh. So that’s why I consider my brother a hero because he actually could quit his old ways and earn his place to go on a mission which is really cool he went to Milwaukee, Wisconsin and he is learning the Spanish language which will be awesome when he talks in it.
My brother is my hero because he has set the perfect example to me he respects women they way they are supposed to be treated he hasn’t got to serious with anyone because he knew his mission was coming up fast so he didn’t steady date just so he could stay on track and actually be righteous enough to go on a mission. Now he is on his mission and I miss him but I wish I would have followed in his foot steps because now I’m locked up and I don’t get to talk to him which sucks because I really like my brother.
My brother is a perfect example of a hero because he would always help my sister with her kids so she could go to work he was always joking around and laughing but all his jokes were appropriate and that influenced me strongly because it made me realize that you can tell funny jokes without them having swear words in it or have any inappropriate things in it he was always making everyone laugh. So that’s why I consider my brother a hero because he actually could quit his old ways and earn his place to go on a mission which is really cool he went to Milwaukee, Wisconsin and he is learning the Spanish language which will be awesome when he talks in it.
Mighty Brother
One way to describe my older brother. My older brother was nice, respectful, and honest and he had lots of pride in him self. my brother was gang affiliated, butt it still did not make my brother a bad person. The reason why I looked up to my older brother was because he was always self confidence about him self in the things he did and did not let any thing stop him from being who he wanted to be. One of the persons who I think is a hero? Would be spaz. And here are my reasons. He’s very brave, smart, loving and will not give up and will do what’s so ever he needs to do so can save his sister bean and for him to do all that’s what’s he’s doing just to see his sister is very amazing. The reasons who I choose spaz over the rest of the other characters. Would kind of jst say there’s nothing we can do ,there not that brave ,not so smart and I just don’t know why I just like spaz and there are my reasons why I think he’s the real hero in the book and also he’s going to do what ever it takes him to save his sister and I think that’s really cool and brave of him. So he can just be with his sister and to read her a story… the end
The Heros in Me
A hero to me is someone who has integrity as well as a strong belief in themselves and those around them. A hero for me is my grandma because even though she’s been through a lot she still stands strong. All her kids including my mom went down hill so fast that it almost looked like it didn’t hit my grandma, but it did.
In the book to me Ryter, is the real hero because Again he had a strong belief in Spaz, and even though spaz, ripped him off he still liked spaz and he saw potential in him. He put up with everything and although he knew he was going to get wheeled (die) he still made the best out of life. Ryter, reminds me of someone I want to be. I want to stick up for what is right and live an adventure and have fun doing the right things before I die.
The other characters were heroes to, because Spaz, never gave up. He wanted to see Bean. To get what he wanted he went through some dangerous stuff. He did everything he could do to get to his little sister. Lanaya didn’t want to be like the other proves so she wanted to help the normal’s. She did what she wanted to do, because she believed in herself. Even though they are all heroes, I think Ryter is still the real hero, he knew what was going to happen to him and he still lived in adventure.
These heroes are amazing and it might only be a story, but to me it was a taste into reality. These heroes I have and keep on my mind , and I often hear my self saying there names and this is why I call them “The Heroes In Me.’’
In the book to me Ryter, is the real hero because Again he had a strong belief in Spaz, and even though spaz, ripped him off he still liked spaz and he saw potential in him. He put up with everything and although he knew he was going to get wheeled (die) he still made the best out of life. Ryter, reminds me of someone I want to be. I want to stick up for what is right and live an adventure and have fun doing the right things before I die.
The other characters were heroes to, because Spaz, never gave up. He wanted to see Bean. To get what he wanted he went through some dangerous stuff. He did everything he could do to get to his little sister. Lanaya didn’t want to be like the other proves so she wanted to help the normal’s. She did what she wanted to do, because she believed in herself. Even though they are all heroes, I think Ryter is still the real hero, he knew what was going to happen to him and he still lived in adventure.
These heroes are amazing and it might only be a story, but to me it was a taste into reality. These heroes I have and keep on my mind , and I often hear my self saying there names and this is why I call them “The Heroes In Me.’’
Opinion or Fact
To me what makes a hero is a person that reaches out to get help and is willing to be happy and help. Also I don’t think that a hero has to be better, stronger, and faster than anyone else. To me a leader can be there self and be a hero for some one else. A hero is someone a person can look up to. I like heroes to me it is someone who can be there self and still have those people around them look up to them.
For example if I had to choose a person in the book that is to be the leader it would have to be the little girl bean. For you people reading the hunger games this is a girl who is sick with leukemia. She has been separated from her brother Spaz for years and now she has sent out for her brother and he is now coming for her. So that is a little bit of what is going on in the book.
I chose bean at the character of the hero because all of the characters in the book live day to day on there own life like everything. I see that bean is the hero because she calls out for people and she is very inspirational. Because she called out for her brother and he left as soon as he could. His brother goes through all the trouble to go and save her sister. He ends up getting to his sister and she is sick and they think that she was going to die and then they had the idea of improving her. Improving in the book is like giving medicine to that sick girl. To me I think that she must have some power because if she can get people to do every thing they can to find a cure means something. Plus like I said earlier I don’t think it takes a better person than any one else to be a hero all I takes is someone to look up to that person.
How I think this character is the leader over them is that the Proovs aren’t suppose to care about the normals and that’s what Bean and Spaz is. So how I see it is if a proov goes out of her way to help Bean clearly shows that she is a hero with out knowing it. That is what I think now lets hear what you think.
For example if I had to choose a person in the book that is to be the leader it would have to be the little girl bean. For you people reading the hunger games this is a girl who is sick with leukemia. She has been separated from her brother Spaz for years and now she has sent out for her brother and he is now coming for her. So that is a little bit of what is going on in the book.
I chose bean at the character of the hero because all of the characters in the book live day to day on there own life like everything. I see that bean is the hero because she calls out for people and she is very inspirational. Because she called out for her brother and he left as soon as he could. His brother goes through all the trouble to go and save her sister. He ends up getting to his sister and she is sick and they think that she was going to die and then they had the idea of improving her. Improving in the book is like giving medicine to that sick girl. To me I think that she must have some power because if she can get people to do every thing they can to find a cure means something. Plus like I said earlier I don’t think it takes a better person than any one else to be a hero all I takes is someone to look up to that person.
How I think this character is the leader over them is that the Proovs aren’t suppose to care about the normals and that’s what Bean and Spaz is. So how I see it is if a proov goes out of her way to help Bean clearly shows that she is a hero with out knowing it. That is what I think now lets hear what you think.
What Makes a Person a Hero?
A hero to me is someone who helps to do what is right supports you in all the right ways lifts you up when you are down, and give you advice when you need it most will take the time to listen to you when you need to talk to someone for example my grandfather would always convince me when I wanted to give up on something to try again and every time he would do that I wouldn’t want to give up anymore in fact I would want it more than did before
The character in the book that I think is the real hero is Ryter there are many reasons that Ryter is the hero in the book to me but the main reasons because when they first began their adventer Spaz said that Ryter wouldn’t be able to keep up but Ryter did not just keep up he pushed Spaz to keep going and also when Spaz felt like giving up Ryter would give him reason to not give up and keep moving forward
The way Ryter would talk to everyone else and how he showed the care that he had for people he did not even know how he had risked his own life just to save Lanaya from the angery mod that were trying to get her off the takvee and when he saved Spaz when he had his attack was so kind and the fact that he did not have to save Spaz
The character in the book that I think is the real hero is Ryter there are many reasons that Ryter is the hero in the book to me but the main reasons because when they first began their adventer Spaz said that Ryter wouldn’t be able to keep up but Ryter did not just keep up he pushed Spaz to keep going and also when Spaz felt like giving up Ryter would give him reason to not give up and keep moving forward
The way Ryter would talk to everyone else and how he showed the care that he had for people he did not even know how he had risked his own life just to save Lanaya from the angery mod that were trying to get her off the takvee and when he saved Spaz when he had his attack was so kind and the fact that he did not have to save Spaz
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Fate
"Fate do your work. We human beings don’t control our own destinies. What is fated to happen must happen. So let it happen!"
I personally agree with this quote. Simply, because this is coming from a person who dose not put their purse in the ground. You chose the decisions you make but with them there are consequences and they can be good or bad. And I think that’s where faith and destiny come in because it was meant to happen. Aren’t we all born to die? That’s destiny, and everything within that. Our lives are set and God knows everything that will happen to all of us. Some people say “life is like a book, you’re writing it as you go” and that not true! Our lives are already written.
An example, the biggest thing you see is when you’re dating someone and it’s not working out but you try so hard to make it work. He tries to change, she tries to change but it still doesn’t work out, because it just wasn’t meant to be! But if you aren’t very good at dating think about like this when you want to win a race so you train so hard and work your butt off to win but you lose. It’s the same concept.
Try to understand that not because you don’t want to happen to you, it won’t happen to you, because if it’s in your destiny it will happen to you. What it’s meant to be will eventually be. Because you can try so hard and you loose it all, but in the end it doesn’t even matter.
Fate is a big part of you’re life weather you want to accept it or not. You can’t try to avoid it and change it but you destiny is written in pen you can erase it its there to follow you. It’s your background. I believe that fate is true and that’s why things happen to all of us.
I personally agree with this quote. Simply, because this is coming from a person who dose not put their purse in the ground. You chose the decisions you make but with them there are consequences and they can be good or bad. And I think that’s where faith and destiny come in because it was meant to happen. Aren’t we all born to die? That’s destiny, and everything within that. Our lives are set and God knows everything that will happen to all of us. Some people say “life is like a book, you’re writing it as you go” and that not true! Our lives are already written.
An example, the biggest thing you see is when you’re dating someone and it’s not working out but you try so hard to make it work. He tries to change, she tries to change but it still doesn’t work out, because it just wasn’t meant to be! But if you aren’t very good at dating think about like this when you want to win a race so you train so hard and work your butt off to win but you lose. It’s the same concept.
Try to understand that not because you don’t want to happen to you, it won’t happen to you, because if it’s in your destiny it will happen to you. What it’s meant to be will eventually be. Because you can try so hard and you loose it all, but in the end it doesn’t even matter.
Fate is a big part of you’re life weather you want to accept it or not. You can’t try to avoid it and change it but you destiny is written in pen you can erase it its there to follow you. It’s your background. I believe that fate is true and that’s why things happen to all of us.
Fate
‘’Fate do your work. We human beings don’t control our own destinies. What is fated to happen must happen. So let it happen!’’
I agree on this quote mainly because so many people, including me, worry a lot on what will happen tomarrow and the next day and so on. We don’t live today, and were not here when we think about other days than today. That is something I need to work on, living in the moment . I don’t know if I believe in fate or destiny though. But I believe in the last part of the quote, ‘’So let it happen.’’ You don’t have that much control on certain stuff. So why waste so much energy and stress on something you cannot change? But I am one to talk, right? It’s hard because you automatically do it. But I guess if you learn to control your thoughts and think I don’t want to worry about it, it should help. Some people think that we all have certain spot in life. That it is destined and cannot be evoided. I don’t really know if I believe that either. I think it is true if you believe that it is true. Something exists only if you believe and know it is real. But that is what I believe, and people probably don’t believe me. So that is probably how it is with the fate/destiny thing on my point of view.
I think that you can control certain stuff in your life that are more longer in life, than stuff like, I want to get that job that I just applied for and had an interview with. Or I just got caught with something and I have to see how my punishment comes out. But the stuff that are like getting school done so I can be a doctor and go to college is up to you. So that is just my opinion on the quote above.
I agree on this quote mainly because so many people, including me, worry a lot on what will happen tomarrow and the next day and so on. We don’t live today, and were not here when we think about other days than today. That is something I need to work on, living in the moment . I don’t know if I believe in fate or destiny though. But I believe in the last part of the quote, ‘’So let it happen.’’ You don’t have that much control on certain stuff. So why waste so much energy and stress on something you cannot change? But I am one to talk, right? It’s hard because you automatically do it. But I guess if you learn to control your thoughts and think I don’t want to worry about it, it should help. Some people think that we all have certain spot in life. That it is destined and cannot be evoided. I don’t really know if I believe that either. I think it is true if you believe that it is true. Something exists only if you believe and know it is real. But that is what I believe, and people probably don’t believe me. So that is probably how it is with the fate/destiny thing on my point of view.
I think that you can control certain stuff in your life that are more longer in life, than stuff like, I want to get that job that I just applied for and had an interview with. Or I just got caught with something and I have to see how my punishment comes out. But the stuff that are like getting school done so I can be a doctor and go to college is up to you. So that is just my opinion on the quote above.
Beauty
"But oh, what a deceiver he turned out to be! Only really cruel people can be called deformed. Virtue is beauty, but someone beautiful and wicked is like an empty box decorated by the devil."
I think that some people can be really pretty on the outside when you first see them you think they are really friendly but when you tell someone that they look cool to talk to but the person you think that’s cool there not really a good friend to hang out with and that person can talk behind your back
But some people can be ugly on the outside but they are friendly also pretty to so it does not matter if there not pretty on the outside and all it matters about there personality.
I think that some people can be really pretty on the outside when you first see them you think they are really friendly but when you tell someone that they look cool to talk to but the person you think that’s cool there not really a good friend to hang out with and that person can talk behind your back
But some people can be ugly on the outside but they are friendly also pretty to so it does not matter if there not pretty on the outside and all it matters about there personality.
The Beauty
" But oh, what a deceiver he turned out to be! Only really cruel people can be called deformed. Virtue is beauty, but someone beautiful and wicked is like an empty box decorated by the devil."
A lot of the meaning in the sentence is true like beauty is not only in just being pretty on the outside and you can also be as pretty and beautiful on the inside, lots of people focuses on the beauty on the out when the inside is on the inside and they don’t realize pretty girls can be pretty on the out but in the inside they can be bitter and mean on the inside and some can be both. The people who try to find beauty they never seem to notice what’s on the in they want a person that people want but the real to that situation is you can have a person that everyone wants but not for what’s on the out side, so in my words people need to focus on why they want beauty and how an they get it that’s on the inside and outside if they want.
A lot of the meaning in the sentence is true like beauty is not only in just being pretty on the outside and you can also be as pretty and beautiful on the inside, lots of people focuses on the beauty on the out when the inside is on the inside and they don’t realize pretty girls can be pretty on the out but in the inside they can be bitter and mean on the inside and some can be both. The people who try to find beauty they never seem to notice what’s on the in they want a person that people want but the real to that situation is you can have a person that everyone wants but not for what’s on the out side, so in my words people need to focus on why they want beauty and how an they get it that’s on the inside and outside if they want.
2 Quotes
Fate
"Fate do your work. We human beings don’t control our own destinies. What is fated to happen must happen. So let it happen!"
I think that fate is not predetermined sometimes thing you don’t want to happen end up happening even though you didn’t think they would you make the path that you walk the choices you make set what you live with it those choices carve you way through live that how your fate is determined it’s the choices you make through your life determine how thing play out
The deceiver within
" But oh, what a deceiver he turned out to be! Only really cruel people can be called deformed. Virtue is beauty, but someone beautiful and wicked is like an empty box decorated by the devil."
In think that everyone has there bad side inside of them although there certain things that will bring that out in a person like having someone hurt you so bad that you would not take the chance again with anyone or they will have certain behaviors that will suggest that they had problem with those kind of things before
"Fate do your work. We human beings don’t control our own destinies. What is fated to happen must happen. So let it happen!"
I think that fate is not predetermined sometimes thing you don’t want to happen end up happening even though you didn’t think they would you make the path that you walk the choices you make set what you live with it those choices carve you way through live that how your fate is determined it’s the choices you make through your life determine how thing play out
The deceiver within
" But oh, what a deceiver he turned out to be! Only really cruel people can be called deformed. Virtue is beauty, but someone beautiful and wicked is like an empty box decorated by the devil."
In think that everyone has there bad side inside of them although there certain things that will bring that out in a person like having someone hurt you so bad that you would not take the chance again with anyone or they will have certain behaviors that will suggest that they had problem with those kind of things before
Fate
Fate do your work. We human beings don’t control our own destinies. What is fated to happen must happen. So let it happen!
Fate is that of the essence, it’s all reality. We live, we breathe, we eat, we love, we cry, and then we die. It’s who we are. We don’t choose our lives, we don’t choose what happens. We live we die simple. Life will be great at some times of your life. Life will be stress full at other times. I feel that no matter how hard we try were always stuck in this life till we die. There isn’t a higher power there isn’t a “choose your own way”. There isn’t an easy way or hard. We are not free spirit. We are what ever we do we cant play “God”. We live then we die. All the religions today are all false. There is no “God”. We find pleasure when were on a stable part of our life only by fate. Fate is a lot like love you cant control it. You meet someone special and then you fall in love you cant choose it, it just happens. So is fate real that’s your decision ill stick with mine and say yes but no. Simply short and sweet. Its simple we feel what we feel, we believe what we belive, we do what we want.
Fate is that of the essence, it’s all reality. We live, we breathe, we eat, we love, we cry, and then we die. It’s who we are. We don’t choose our lives, we don’t choose what happens. We live we die simple. Life will be great at some times of your life. Life will be stress full at other times. I feel that no matter how hard we try were always stuck in this life till we die. There isn’t a higher power there isn’t a “choose your own way”. There isn’t an easy way or hard. We are not free spirit. We are what ever we do we cant play “God”. We live then we die. All the religions today are all false. There is no “God”. We find pleasure when were on a stable part of our life only by fate. Fate is a lot like love you cant control it. You meet someone special and then you fall in love you cant choose it, it just happens. So is fate real that’s your decision ill stick with mine and say yes but no. Simply short and sweet. Its simple we feel what we feel, we believe what we belive, we do what we want.
Beauty Doesn’t Matter How You Look!
"But oh, what a deceiver he turned out to be! Only really cruel people can be called deformed. Virtue is beauty, but someone beautiful and wicked is like an empty box decorated by the devil."
My Opinion to this is that beauty doesn’t matter how you look. There are guys that think because the girl is mean that they are ugly. I don’t think people should call anybody deformed just because they are cruel. I think that girls, who are cocky, conceited are the one’s who are rude because they think they are better then anyone else.
I think that theirs girls who try to be like other girls because they are pretty and are popular. I think the girls that are like that have the nastiest attitude. People sometimes make fun of the people who are really ugly but I think you should get to know a person before you say mean things about them because it don’t matter if their ugly there attitude and how they act makes them be cute.
Just because you’re beautiful on the outside doesn’t mean you have the true beauty inside. I don’t agree with this quote. I know someone who is beautiful in the inside but on the outside there really cruel. This person is so fine but they have the nastiest attitude. They are so disrespectful to girls and call girls dirty names just because they are ugly or they hear things about them.
I don’t think a girl or a boy should be disrespected by any way just because they are ugly, because ugly people make them self look beautiful for by the way they are, the way they act. There’s a lot of people I know that are beautiful from the inside and outside those are the people you should respect, and either way respect the people who are beautiful in the inside and nasty on the outs because it don’t matter about anything beauty is in anyone.
My Opinion to this is that beauty doesn’t matter how you look. There are guys that think because the girl is mean that they are ugly. I don’t think people should call anybody deformed just because they are cruel. I think that girls, who are cocky, conceited are the one’s who are rude because they think they are better then anyone else.
I think that theirs girls who try to be like other girls because they are pretty and are popular. I think the girls that are like that have the nastiest attitude. People sometimes make fun of the people who are really ugly but I think you should get to know a person before you say mean things about them because it don’t matter if their ugly there attitude and how they act makes them be cute.
Just because you’re beautiful on the outside doesn’t mean you have the true beauty inside. I don’t agree with this quote. I know someone who is beautiful in the inside but on the outside there really cruel. This person is so fine but they have the nastiest attitude. They are so disrespectful to girls and call girls dirty names just because they are ugly or they hear things about them.
I don’t think a girl or a boy should be disrespected by any way just because they are ugly, because ugly people make them self look beautiful for by the way they are, the way they act. There’s a lot of people I know that are beautiful from the inside and outside those are the people you should respect, and either way respect the people who are beautiful in the inside and nasty on the outs because it don’t matter about anything beauty is in anyone.
Fate Quote
Fate do your work. We human beings don’t control our own destinies. What is fated to happen must happen. So let it happen!
I believe that quote is true. Everyone says things happens for a reason and it does. We can control something’s like our choices, our actions, emotions and what we want out of life. Sometimes things don’t go our way but that’s just reality. We’re put on this earth as an own individual. We live life wondering what’s going to happen next? We ask questions, why is this happening? But no one really knows because it’s Fate. God only knows what is going to happen to us and the reasons behind it. We may not like what happens and we may feel overwhelmed, but we always got to look on the out come out of it and realize we’re supposed to go through this. It may make you a
better person or destroy your work but, that you can control and make it better than it seems at times. For example, before I had come to Summit. I would always give up when something bad happened, at the time I didn’t know why it was happening and I would have a bad attitude about it. Which didn’t get me anywhere. I dwelled on it and wouldn’t move on. I didn’t care about anything. But than I got put into foster care and put into Summit and it taught me everything happens and I have to put it behind me and hope for the best. Now anytime something bad happens I tell myself this may suck right now but in the end it will turn out pretty good, I just have to keep my head held high and don’t let anything or anyone bring me down. Once I started doing that I had a better out look on life and what it’s about. It makes me feel much better when I do it.
I believe that quote is true. Everyone says things happens for a reason and it does. We can control something’s like our choices, our actions, emotions and what we want out of life. Sometimes things don’t go our way but that’s just reality. We’re put on this earth as an own individual. We live life wondering what’s going to happen next? We ask questions, why is this happening? But no one really knows because it’s Fate. God only knows what is going to happen to us and the reasons behind it. We may not like what happens and we may feel overwhelmed, but we always got to look on the out come out of it and realize we’re supposed to go through this. It may make you a
better person or destroy your work but, that you can control and make it better than it seems at times. For example, before I had come to Summit. I would always give up when something bad happened, at the time I didn’t know why it was happening and I would have a bad attitude about it. Which didn’t get me anywhere. I dwelled on it and wouldn’t move on. I didn’t care about anything. But than I got put into foster care and put into Summit and it taught me everything happens and I have to put it behind me and hope for the best. Now anytime something bad happens I tell myself this may suck right now but in the end it will turn out pretty good, I just have to keep my head held high and don’t let anything or anyone bring me down. Once I started doing that I had a better out look on life and what it’s about. It makes me feel much better when I do it.
Friday, January 7, 2011
True Beauty Covered Up
“But oh, what a deceiver he turned out to be! Only really cruel people can be called deformed. Virtue is beauty, but someone beautiful and wicked is like an empty box decorated by the devil.”
I think that’s sort of how I am, I’m sort of nice to people like I act nice to everyone but when I get in trouble or someone says I’m rude like it’s hard for other people to believe that I’m rude because I always cover my pain up with laughter and crying I don’t ever be rude to any one, I just keep it to my self.
Like I can be one of the most nicest people you could ever meet but when you do something to me like that would really hurt me at first I’m just really sad and I let you do it all the time and I don’t ever say any thing to you or any one, but than after a while I just get tired of it and I’m the rudest person like I don’t care what any one tells me because I just was covering up my feelings for the longest time so it just comes out in anger after a while.
Sometimes the most prettiest girls are the meanest girls out there they think there better than every one else, and a lot of people always want to be like them cause their pretty but they have the nastiest attitude.
If there ugly they get made fun of a lot but if you really get to know them you’ll think their so nice and you could become best friends, or maybe just really good friends with them.
Your looks don’t always determine everything about you sometimes you just got to get to know the real them.
I think that’s sort of how I am, I’m sort of nice to people like I act nice to everyone but when I get in trouble or someone says I’m rude like it’s hard for other people to believe that I’m rude because I always cover my pain up with laughter and crying I don’t ever be rude to any one, I just keep it to my self.
Like I can be one of the most nicest people you could ever meet but when you do something to me like that would really hurt me at first I’m just really sad and I let you do it all the time and I don’t ever say any thing to you or any one, but than after a while I just get tired of it and I’m the rudest person like I don’t care what any one tells me because I just was covering up my feelings for the longest time so it just comes out in anger after a while.
Sometimes the most prettiest girls are the meanest girls out there they think there better than every one else, and a lot of people always want to be like them cause their pretty but they have the nastiest attitude.
If there ugly they get made fun of a lot but if you really get to know them you’ll think their so nice and you could become best friends, or maybe just really good friends with them.
Your looks don’t always determine everything about you sometimes you just got to get to know the real them.
Friday, December 10, 2010
My New Beginning
“She is one beautiful girl!” My heart beated shaking from a mixture of feelings!
I took a look at her as I held her in my arms, “She is!!” I said to the nurse. “How can you love someone so much that you just met?!” I was scared bringing a new baby into the world not knowing what to expect. Excitement filled me up as my mom took a look at her, “A new beginning” she said with a big smile on her face, “She is defiantly a Genesis.” As we drive home form the hospital she starts to cry. It was the cutest thing until the point where she wouldn’t shut up. We fed her some baby formula and she stopped. The first night was bad. She cried all through the night she just wouldn’t sleep. Since she was with me all day (because lucky for me it was summer vacation) I would not let her take naps through the day so maybe she would sleep at night, but it didn’t work. After awhile she got used to it and everything went better.
For her first birthday I took her to the store and I got her a new outfit that she loved! I showered her and got her ready, my mom threw her a birthday party. “She looks so cute and big!” My aunt said holding Genesis present in one of her hands, “She’s adorable” My older sister said, standing behind her. I knew Genesis was having a great time because like me she loves attention! Finally, it was time to cut the cake, she was ever so happy, and finally she blew the candle out! She was probably too young to know about the birthday wish so as I stood behind her and whisper “I hope you grow up to be a smart, strong and beautiful woman.” As for now I think its one wish that might actually come true!
When I take a look at her now (she’s three) it’s like I can see my reflection. She wants to be just like me.” When are you coming back?” she asks hoping I say today, holding back my tears I respond “Soon baby girl” I can see she wants to cry too. Her black, Chinese eyes can speak the words she doesn’t want to say, “Why not today? We can go pick you up, gather your stuff”, regretting every stupid decision I’ve made, wanting to cry, not wanting to hear what she’d say next “What’s wrong?” she asks confused as a three year old can be, not understanding the situation I have put myself in, I cant find an answer to her question. I hang up the phone, tell my fosters the call was lost. I can’t hold the tears any longer and I brake! Wanting to be with my little girl and whishing I was with her! I think of her again her face, her smile, her laugh, and it gives me hope! I find the reason I want to change, I find the reason why I need to straighten up... Because at home there is a little girl who waits for the day that I can be home to stay for good.
I took a look at her as I held her in my arms, “She is!!” I said to the nurse. “How can you love someone so much that you just met?!” I was scared bringing a new baby into the world not knowing what to expect. Excitement filled me up as my mom took a look at her, “A new beginning” she said with a big smile on her face, “She is defiantly a Genesis.” As we drive home form the hospital she starts to cry. It was the cutest thing until the point where she wouldn’t shut up. We fed her some baby formula and she stopped. The first night was bad. She cried all through the night she just wouldn’t sleep. Since she was with me all day (because lucky for me it was summer vacation) I would not let her take naps through the day so maybe she would sleep at night, but it didn’t work. After awhile she got used to it and everything went better.
For her first birthday I took her to the store and I got her a new outfit that she loved! I showered her and got her ready, my mom threw her a birthday party. “She looks so cute and big!” My aunt said holding Genesis present in one of her hands, “She’s adorable” My older sister said, standing behind her. I knew Genesis was having a great time because like me she loves attention! Finally, it was time to cut the cake, she was ever so happy, and finally she blew the candle out! She was probably too young to know about the birthday wish so as I stood behind her and whisper “I hope you grow up to be a smart, strong and beautiful woman.” As for now I think its one wish that might actually come true!
When I take a look at her now (she’s three) it’s like I can see my reflection. She wants to be just like me.” When are you coming back?” she asks hoping I say today, holding back my tears I respond “Soon baby girl” I can see she wants to cry too. Her black, Chinese eyes can speak the words she doesn’t want to say, “Why not today? We can go pick you up, gather your stuff”, regretting every stupid decision I’ve made, wanting to cry, not wanting to hear what she’d say next “What’s wrong?” she asks confused as a three year old can be, not understanding the situation I have put myself in, I cant find an answer to her question. I hang up the phone, tell my fosters the call was lost. I can’t hold the tears any longer and I brake! Wanting to be with my little girl and whishing I was with her! I think of her again her face, her smile, her laugh, and it gives me hope! I find the reason I want to change, I find the reason why I need to straighten up... Because at home there is a little girl who waits for the day that I can be home to stay for good.
When I Walked Into the Court
“Claudia how have you been doing?” Asked my judge. I was 17years old when I walked into that court. It all started like this, the judge asked the group how I was doing and they said, she has got into a fight with a girl because of Miguel, and she has violated the Lightning Peaks rules, she has seen Miguel while she was in Lightning Peak. The Judge got mad more because I didn’t really go to school; i was just getting into a lot of trouble, not caring about my baby. I would always leave my baby with my mom when I was 15 years old I didn’t really think how it was being a mom. I was 15 years old when I first got into the system, that’s when I started being another Claudia. My baby boy was 10 months.
The reason I was in Lightning Peak was, because I got into fights, got alcohol tickets, curfew tickets the one that suggested me to be in that was the judge. When the judge heard everything she had to hear she said, “Claudia is put into DCFS, she has a choice to volunteer to take her baby with her.” I said, “I want him to come with me. I felt sad; angry towards this because I don’t want to put my son threw this. After court I said bye to my family I was crying because it hurt me being in the system because of a guy I love. My caseworker told us he was taking me to meet my foster parent’s. When I got to the DCFS I felt so sad because I was going away somewhere else away from my family but the good thing I had my baby. When the foster parent’s got their I said, “Hi”. They were white. When we got to their house they showed me my room, so I got in my room and started crying.
It’s been so hard for me being in foster care. I almost got my baby token away, but the good thing is I got a chance. The DCFS has given me lots of chances. The last chance they gave me I learned my lesson and started doing so well, and keeping my head up, because they aid any little thing I did I will get him token away. I know I should of change the day I had this baby, but I guess I was hard headed. I’ve been trough a lot in my life. I don’t have my parent’s, I’ on my own, I have 2 brother’s here, but I can’t move with them. I’ve learned not to give up and especially for someone I love, that is never their for his family.
In till this day I’ve never gave up, I have been doing well so I can support my son and I. I don’t need anybody I know I can do it by my self I don’t think I need his dad right now. I know I do but I have to do the best for my son, if he ever does change who knows we might be together, but till now I don’t want him in our life’s he has hurt us a lot, my baby doesn’t need that, but I’ll always have his back, and be down for him. In till this day I’ve learned to always listen to my parents, and never do anything for someone who is not worth it, always think about my baby first before I do something stupid because look what I’ve gotten my self and my baby into, but I’m almost threw this, I know I can do it on my own.
The reason I was in Lightning Peak was, because I got into fights, got alcohol tickets, curfew tickets the one that suggested me to be in that was the judge. When the judge heard everything she had to hear she said, “Claudia is put into DCFS, she has a choice to volunteer to take her baby with her.” I said, “I want him to come with me. I felt sad; angry towards this because I don’t want to put my son threw this. After court I said bye to my family I was crying because it hurt me being in the system because of a guy I love. My caseworker told us he was taking me to meet my foster parent’s. When I got to the DCFS I felt so sad because I was going away somewhere else away from my family but the good thing I had my baby. When the foster parent’s got their I said, “Hi”. They were white. When we got to their house they showed me my room, so I got in my room and started crying.
It’s been so hard for me being in foster care. I almost got my baby token away, but the good thing is I got a chance. The DCFS has given me lots of chances. The last chance they gave me I learned my lesson and started doing so well, and keeping my head up, because they aid any little thing I did I will get him token away. I know I should of change the day I had this baby, but I guess I was hard headed. I’ve been trough a lot in my life. I don’t have my parent’s, I’ on my own, I have 2 brother’s here, but I can’t move with them. I’ve learned not to give up and especially for someone I love, that is never their for his family.
In till this day I’ve never gave up, I have been doing well so I can support my son and I. I don’t need anybody I know I can do it by my self I don’t think I need his dad right now. I know I do but I have to do the best for my son, if he ever does change who knows we might be together, but till now I don’t want him in our life’s he has hurt us a lot, my baby doesn’t need that, but I’ll always have his back, and be down for him. In till this day I’ve learned to always listen to my parents, and never do anything for someone who is not worth it, always think about my baby first before I do something stupid because look what I’ve gotten my self and my baby into, but I’m almost threw this, I know I can do it on my own.
The Forever Proposal
“Hello? Mom, Guess what? I get to come home for a visit.” I said into the receiver to my mother. I was so excited to be able to come home and see my family.
“That’s great sweet-heart, what time do I need to pick you up?” my mother said to me as I asked my staff what was the best time. I then relayed the time to my mother.
Calmly and very suspiciously I asked my mother in a soft whisper “Mom make sure Ash comes with okay mom?”
“Don’t worry Hun I’ll make sure she comes,” my mother assured me. Then the line went dead, and I went to my room to get ready for the day of my biggest decision ever. I was so excited but at the same time, I was scared that what would happen if it wouldn’t go as I planned.
“Are you excited to go see your family Cody?” my staff asked me as I got ready to go to church. “Hell yeah I am why wouldn’t I be?” I asked questioningly. After church I went back to my room and was waiting very anxiously for my mother to arrive.
“Hey sweetie, are you ready to go?” asked my mother, as she checked me out of the place I was staying at, which in all consideration was a rhetorical question that I didn’t answer as we climbed into the truck to go to my home. The ride home was very short but quiet like my mom and dad were plotting some grand scheme.
“Hey babe” I said as I swept me girlfriend into my arms and embracing her with a big long warm hug and then released her and kissed her perfectly soft and beautiful lips.
“I’ve missed you so much babe,” my girlfriend said to me as my best friend walked up to me and embraced me in a friendly hug.
When we got inside we went to the living room and sat on the couch as my girlfriend cuddled right up next to me with the rest of my family around us, who were waiting to hear about what I had been up to for the past couple of months.
After a while we migrated to the kitchen for my girlfriends surprise birthday party, which she found out a couple of days before hand. We had some cake and mingled amongst ourselves tell each other what we have been up to for the past little while. When everyone started heading back to the living room I hollered at everyone.
“Wait Ash hasn’t open her presents yet” I said eagerly, stopping everyone in there tracks and they turned around and looked at me questioningly.
“Wait present? What present? I didn’t see anyone bring any presents in.” she asked as she looked around at everyone shaking there heads, until she met my eyes and realized I was on one knee with a little blue box.
“We have been through a lot the past few years there’s been pain, smiles, laughter, tears, but most of all there has always been love, Ashlie, I love you with all my heart and I want you to know that I want you, and only you, I want all of you forever and always. So now Ashlie Amanda Hansen, will you marry me?” as I opened the box and waited for her to answer. She suddenly broke into tears and smiled and said through all the emotion as hard as she could.
“Yes, yes forever I love you Cody, I would be happy to marry you.” As I slipped the ring onto her finger as she jumped on me and embraced me in another hug and locking her lips onto mine with a kiss. I felt overwhelmed and felt like my heart would burst out from my chest from the love I felt.
“That’s great sweet-heart, what time do I need to pick you up?” my mother said to me as I asked my staff what was the best time. I then relayed the time to my mother.
Calmly and very suspiciously I asked my mother in a soft whisper “Mom make sure Ash comes with okay mom?”
“Don’t worry Hun I’ll make sure she comes,” my mother assured me. Then the line went dead, and I went to my room to get ready for the day of my biggest decision ever. I was so excited but at the same time, I was scared that what would happen if it wouldn’t go as I planned.
“Are you excited to go see your family Cody?” my staff asked me as I got ready to go to church. “Hell yeah I am why wouldn’t I be?” I asked questioningly. After church I went back to my room and was waiting very anxiously for my mother to arrive.
“Hey sweetie, are you ready to go?” asked my mother, as she checked me out of the place I was staying at, which in all consideration was a rhetorical question that I didn’t answer as we climbed into the truck to go to my home. The ride home was very short but quiet like my mom and dad were plotting some grand scheme.
“Hey babe” I said as I swept me girlfriend into my arms and embracing her with a big long warm hug and then released her and kissed her perfectly soft and beautiful lips.
“I’ve missed you so much babe,” my girlfriend said to me as my best friend walked up to me and embraced me in a friendly hug.
When we got inside we went to the living room and sat on the couch as my girlfriend cuddled right up next to me with the rest of my family around us, who were waiting to hear about what I had been up to for the past couple of months.
After a while we migrated to the kitchen for my girlfriends surprise birthday party, which she found out a couple of days before hand. We had some cake and mingled amongst ourselves tell each other what we have been up to for the past little while. When everyone started heading back to the living room I hollered at everyone.
“Wait Ash hasn’t open her presents yet” I said eagerly, stopping everyone in there tracks and they turned around and looked at me questioningly.
“Wait present? What present? I didn’t see anyone bring any presents in.” she asked as she looked around at everyone shaking there heads, until she met my eyes and realized I was on one knee with a little blue box.
“We have been through a lot the past few years there’s been pain, smiles, laughter, tears, but most of all there has always been love, Ashlie, I love you with all my heart and I want you to know that I want you, and only you, I want all of you forever and always. So now Ashlie Amanda Hansen, will you marry me?” as I opened the box and waited for her to answer. She suddenly broke into tears and smiled and said through all the emotion as hard as she could.
“Yes, yes forever I love you Cody, I would be happy to marry you.” As I slipped the ring onto her finger as she jumped on me and embraced me in another hug and locking her lips onto mine with a kiss. I felt overwhelmed and felt like my heart would burst out from my chest from the love I felt.
Best Day Ever
“Oh my god, Your so beautiful” said my dad. “Thanks daddy.” I said. It has been 4 years since I have seen my dad, it was the best day of my life to see him again. I felt like crying, just from hugging him.
“Look you have grown so much mija, I’m so glad I can hold you in my arms once again.” He told me. “ you to dad, you look like your doin good, I couldn’t wait to see you.” I said. “are you ready to meet your little sister, she looks so much like you, I get you too mixed up all the time” He said.
I was kind of nervous to meet Brooklyn, because I was the last kid my dad had and I didn’t want my place to be taken from me.“ yeah I’m ready” Later that day we got to his house and Brooklyn was inside sleeping, my step mom wanted to wake her up, but I told her I can wait till she wakes up herself, just so she’s not so ornery”.
Brooklyn finally woke up, she looked straight at me. My dad wasn’t lying, me and Brooklyn looked exactly alike. She walked over to me like she had known me forever, she gave me a big hug and didn’t let go. It felt so good to meet her.
“Its like looking in the mirror, but when I was little” I told my dad. “ your telling me, when I saw her I was so shocked, I told Tiffany do you know who she looks like? She looks like her older sister” he said. “I guess your gens are strong” Tiffany said. We all laughed. I told me dad why I was hesitating to meet Brooklyn, He just laughed, and told me “baby girl you don’t have to worry about Brooklyn taking your place, you have a special place in my heart, he said you’re my baby girl no matter how old you get.”
What I learned from this experience was that no matter what or who comes into my dads life I’ll always be his little girl.
“Look you have grown so much mija, I’m so glad I can hold you in my arms once again.” He told me. “ you to dad, you look like your doin good, I couldn’t wait to see you.” I said. “are you ready to meet your little sister, she looks so much like you, I get you too mixed up all the time” He said.
I was kind of nervous to meet Brooklyn, because I was the last kid my dad had and I didn’t want my place to be taken from me.“ yeah I’m ready” Later that day we got to his house and Brooklyn was inside sleeping, my step mom wanted to wake her up, but I told her I can wait till she wakes up herself, just so she’s not so ornery”.
Brooklyn finally woke up, she looked straight at me. My dad wasn’t lying, me and Brooklyn looked exactly alike. She walked over to me like she had known me forever, she gave me a big hug and didn’t let go. It felt so good to meet her.
“Its like looking in the mirror, but when I was little” I told my dad. “ your telling me, when I saw her I was so shocked, I told Tiffany do you know who she looks like? She looks like her older sister” he said. “I guess your gens are strong” Tiffany said. We all laughed. I told me dad why I was hesitating to meet Brooklyn, He just laughed, and told me “baby girl you don’t have to worry about Brooklyn taking your place, you have a special place in my heart, he said you’re my baby girl no matter how old you get.”
What I learned from this experience was that no matter what or who comes into my dads life I’ll always be his little girl.
My Cold Blue Night
It was getting late and the kids were getting fussy, I got the bambinos fed, washed and into bed.
He worked late evenings from 8:00p.m. To 3:00a.m. It felt like I never had time with him anymore. When he got off work all he did was eat sleep and go back to work.
I read a book then fall asleep. At three twenty seven a.m. he woke me up with the softest kiss and told me he had something he wanted to show me.
For a moment I was angry, but at the same time I knew he wouldn’t wake me for nothing.
I felt the cold still lingering from around his body from coming in from the cold.
He took me by the hand, up the stares, and rushed me towards the living room window, quickly and quietly so we wouldn’t wake the baby’s.
“He told me to close my eyes” I was hesitant at first, and then I thought to myself “he so bought me a new car”. He opened the window then said to me “open your eyes”.
It was the most adorable thing, and it made up for all the times he didn’t have time for me. There were about seven deer in the street and in our yard they were all equally beautiful.
They were running around in our front yard and looked as if they were playing tag under the moon light.
The sky was a dark, smoky blue. The moon was full and the light was reflecting from the moon to the freshly fallen snow, it was beautiful.
The deer and the weather made it perfect.
The snow, the moon and the stars all together made it even more romantic, almost like a fairy tail. We stared at the scene I could feel him watching me, I whispered “their beautiful.” He smiled and said “I think you’re beautiful.”
Back then I thought that we were perfect. Now my thought is blank. From then on, I left the sweet memories that I held in my heart to treasure, behind me and decided to make myself a promise for my own good; the word (LOVE), the emotion (LOVE), that tight annoying felling in you throat and the butterflies in your tummy (LOVE) will never be excepted in this cold dark heart of mine again.
He worked late evenings from 8:00p.m. To 3:00a.m. It felt like I never had time with him anymore. When he got off work all he did was eat sleep and go back to work.
I read a book then fall asleep. At three twenty seven a.m. he woke me up with the softest kiss and told me he had something he wanted to show me.
For a moment I was angry, but at the same time I knew he wouldn’t wake me for nothing.
I felt the cold still lingering from around his body from coming in from the cold.
He took me by the hand, up the stares, and rushed me towards the living room window, quickly and quietly so we wouldn’t wake the baby’s.
“He told me to close my eyes” I was hesitant at first, and then I thought to myself “he so bought me a new car”. He opened the window then said to me “open your eyes”.
It was the most adorable thing, and it made up for all the times he didn’t have time for me. There were about seven deer in the street and in our yard they were all equally beautiful.
They were running around in our front yard and looked as if they were playing tag under the moon light.
The sky was a dark, smoky blue. The moon was full and the light was reflecting from the moon to the freshly fallen snow, it was beautiful.
The deer and the weather made it perfect.
The snow, the moon and the stars all together made it even more romantic, almost like a fairy tail. We stared at the scene I could feel him watching me, I whispered “their beautiful.” He smiled and said “I think you’re beautiful.”
Back then I thought that we were perfect. Now my thought is blank. From then on, I left the sweet memories that I held in my heart to treasure, behind me and decided to make myself a promise for my own good; the word (LOVE), the emotion (LOVE), that tight annoying felling in you throat and the butterflies in your tummy (LOVE) will never be excepted in this cold dark heart of mine again.
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